May 27, 2010
Self-Blues
I'm an actor. I wear masks. One for indoors, one for out. One for friends, one for strangers. But I can't fathom that the masks define me. That guy? That's just how I act when I'm confronted with certain situations. But that isn't the real me.
But there is a problem with this. If all my masks don't define me, I am never my real self. There is a part of me that remains closed, possibly forever. I more and more get the notion that my real self can only be expressed to myself, and only myself.
Honestly, it sucks. But what am I supposed to do?
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Maybe the one that you think is your 'real' self is also a mask, because how many people are really that comfortable with themselves?
ReplyDeleteAhhh, the old post about the masks. I've seen that on lots of blogs. Tis something humans ponder. Why can I not just be myself around everyone? The million dollar question.
Even if my real self is also a mask, I will never perceive it as such, because it is the most comfortable I ever am with myself.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy you didn't attempt to answer something you aren't able to. (Though if you could answer it, I wouldn't mind.)
I didnt realize it was a question. It's a style of writing to end off with a question, that doesn't require an answer. It's called rhetorical.
ReplyDeleteplus, it's not something I could answer. It's something that YOU need to answer, and subsequently, anyone so him or herself.
ReplyDeleteQuoting The Thinker "Even if my real self is also a mask, I will never perceive it as such, because it is the most comfortable I ever am with myself."
ReplyDelete...brings you right back to the begining. Are we really ourselves? Are we a product of our surroundings? Can we ever be original?
Simon- I'd venture to say that my real self is the way I'm most comfortable. That this was and is affected by my surroundings is inevitable, but I wouldn't consider this a loss of my freedom to be myself. However, when that sense of self must be concealed in order to go about daily life, I can say I feel constricted.
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